Wednesday, April 11, 2012


四月,是一個緬懷故人的季節,也是一個復活重生的季節,更是一個與生死扯不開的季節。這些年,每當一些年紀與自己相若,甚或比自己年輕的親友、同學捨我而去時,總有一種詭異莫測的感覺:為甚麼他們比我先走?是他們的運氣還是自己的運氣?要走的話,是否會突如其來?還是早有先兆?留下的,又會是怎樣的光景?最重要的問號是,我所做的事、存在的價值,究竟意義何在?

《那些年》的女主人翁沈佳宜說了一句很能引起共鳴的話: 「人生有很多事本來就是徒勞無功的啊!」這不正正點出了過去八年議會工作的結論嗎?但轉念一想,這話似乎又過於消極,過於出世。從另一角度看,也是太看重自己了。為甚麼你認為你的言行一定會令到整個世界剎那間改變?這不是過於自我是甚麼?還是電影中的柯景騰說得中肯: 「這個世界因為有了我會有一點點差別。」管他這一點點差別是好是壞,已代表著,也見證著自己的存在,今天的種種,並非南柯一夢。

一行禪師曾經說過: 「死亡並非是從有到無,並非是從有人變成無人。」他把人與雲相比。他問: 「那麼雲會死嗎?」答案是不會的。這只是形態的一種轉變:「就算雲在天空中消失,它仍然以雨或雪的新形態存在。當你喝茶或飲水時,看到雲就在茶水裡,你看到了真理。」改變是事實,也是永恆的。八年工作雲和月,說多不多,說少不少,換來的,只是雙目無神、兩鬢皆白的面容。但在議會的紀錄中,也曾有我存在過的痕迹,也可說是已做到了柯景騰所說的,令到這議會、這社會也許「有一點點差別」。既是如此,夫復何求?

6 comments:

Frankie Fook-lun Leung said...

why don't you write to CY Leung to give me a medal for writing so much to your blog? I guess you are the last person he will listen to.

Frankie Fook-lun Leung said...

If you want to write soothing essays and earn a living, don't be a politician. Being a poet like Tsui Chi-mal at Cambridge University may suit your temperament better.

Frankie Fook-lun Leung said...

This type of essays gives the negative impression to your potential voters that you are in the clouds. A no-no in politics. You should show that you are the go-geter. Don't ask what your party can do for you. Ask what you can do for your constituents, even to the extent to giving false hopes.

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